24-02-23 No one asked if my porridge could be warm, no one stood with me at dusk
After dinner, Xiaogao disappeared again and ignored me
Maybe still working on the composition? Maybe organizing things? Or maybe relatives came over? Or maybe doing homework?......
Given my personality, maybe because I'm a fish? I'm actually someone who will crazily speculate about the other person's thoughts. I have a strong sense of suspicion, and that won't change
Talking to him, I found that when I chat with others (not my parents, but I will try to please them, okay, I admit I have a people-pleasing personality, tired), in most cases, I will draft what to say, afraid of saying the wrong thing and not being able to round it off.
I am like Xiaogao, looking at problems from the other person's perspective. I am actually a bit afraid of rejection. My original family is a bit of a failure, they raised a child who can accept everything for the most part, with "whatever" as a mantra. What to eat at night: whatever; where to go: whatever. Nothing special that I like......
In a sense, I should be very similar to this classmate Xiaogao. I have never had such a friend before, and it is in this circle that we interact. I am very happy in my heart, but on the other hand, I am also afraid of losing. Almost the same way of chatting, liking to be carefree, not having things I love, being suspicious and speculative, unwilling to show weakness, escaping if possible......
I pay a lot of attention to relationships between friends. I am very sensitive to emotions and behaviors. However, she disappeared tonight, for a long time, I want to wait for her, I set an alarm every hour, looking at the screen, with many thoughts but feeling ultimately futile, I think I am probably (losing my mind)
I have tried very hard to keep her
Never been like this before (first time in my life)
If she ignores me
Always (Forever)
Then let her go, I will feel uncomfortable for a while
From the bottom of my heart
Wish you happiness, friend
People we meet in the sea of humanity will eventually have to return to the sea of humanity